Teddy's a fuzzy little bundle of love, he's there for you even in your darkest times, Elya. I know all too well there's no "off" switch for depression, but keep in mind it does pass, things do get better, and there are plenty of very good people right here who you can chat with and let it all out. Most of us have been where you are, to one degree or another, so we all understand! You are not alone, and while we are not a replacement for professional help, we can be a shoulder to cry on, or a sympathetic ear to listen