Bereavement

[Eagleheart]

Today I have been overwhelmed by grief about dad. He died 35 years ago when I was just 15. He was my best friend. I don't know why I am so full of sorrow today. I think it's because it's been a stunningly beautiful autumn day here today and we buried dad on a day just like this. I sat in my garden this morning, listening to the birds singing and I had an enormous need for a cuddle from my dad. I remembered the feel of his big strong arms around me and I could smell the scent of woodsmoke and soap that he always smelled of. And the tears came pouring out of me. I was a child again. A child who needed her daddy to make it all better. Grief never leaves you. The smallest thing can bring it right back up to the surface. It is a constant ache.

 

[LittleTooMuch]

I don't think you ever need a specific reason to miss him. I find for me its the most randomest of things that make me miss my dad so much. i miss him everyday but i feel like it usually things that people dont think will affect you that triggers you.

sounds like you have so many happy memories of him though, treasure them forever

 

[Catsmother]

Hi @Eagleheart

I understand, I often still grieve for my mum and 2 brothers. sometimes just a little reminder of them makes us want a cuddle and to see them again.

 

[Eagleheart]

Thank you both for your replies.
It's definitely little things that bring him back to mind. I want to thank you for understanding. It soothes me to know that I am understood.

 

[Pitszal]

I fully understand how you feel. True grief has no time limit. Sometimes time is not a healer. I lost my husband over a year ago after 62 years of marriage. We were together since I was 14. We will always be with our loved ones through our memories that will last forever

 

[Pinky]

Sorry to hear that Eagleheart. Days like that can really get you down. I lost a parent when I was very young and don't remember but it doesn't make it any easier.

All the best

 

[Emerald]

I understand how you feel @Eagleheart similar experience with my Mom.
Do take good care and hugs to you