Hi everyone,
I don't know what is appropriate to post where on the internet right now, but I thought I'd try here.
Someone suggested this forum a few days ago on the side by side website. I was already feeling like I was in crisis at that point... Then I had sudden news that a family member of mine was in a serious accident. Recieved the news on Friday and I don't know how to process it.
I didn't even get to say goodbye because of Covid policy - but at the same time, I knew she wouldn't survive the injuries as soon as I heard the call Friday night.
Sunday I found out that we can watch the dashcam footage if we want to. I don't know if I should when that time comes. I haven't seen her in a very long time and that would be the last moment I saw her.
I'm not use to feeling so many peaks in anger/frustration/irritation for so long. I'm pissed that so many onlookers got to see her when I couldn't - It makes me wonder if people took footage. I wasn't even allowed to video call as she "didn't consent to being recorded".
We have so much to sort out now and it's only the 4 of us. Don't know what to do with all her things, we won't have time to organise it all before the housing association throws us out. She was a hoarder so we'll have to take our time, but there isn't much time.
I don't know where to turn to for help online. It's another national lockdown now, what charities do I go to for help? Where do I give some of the things away to? I want people to be able to make use of a few items. I'm the only one comfortable to navigate the Internet. But I don't really know where to turn to. Maybe free sharing sites? But there is no guarantee that the people will pick up the items.
I haven't even begun to really explore my mental state. I feel like I'm in a constant disassociative state.
I don't know what is appropriate to post where on the internet right now, but I thought I'd try here.
Someone suggested this forum a few days ago on the side by side website. I was already feeling like I was in crisis at that point... Then I had sudden news that a family member of mine was in a serious accident. Recieved the news on Friday and I don't know how to process it.
I didn't even get to say goodbye because of Covid policy - but at the same time, I knew she wouldn't survive the injuries as soon as I heard the call Friday night.
Sunday I found out that we can watch the dashcam footage if we want to. I don't know if I should when that time comes. I haven't seen her in a very long time and that would be the last moment I saw her.
I'm not use to feeling so many peaks in anger/frustration/irritation for so long. I'm pissed that so many onlookers got to see her when I couldn't - It makes me wonder if people took footage. I wasn't even allowed to video call as she "didn't consent to being recorded".
We have so much to sort out now and it's only the 4 of us. Don't know what to do with all her things, we won't have time to organise it all before the housing association throws us out. She was a hoarder so we'll have to take our time, but there isn't much time.
I don't know where to turn to for help online. It's another national lockdown now, what charities do I go to for help? Where do I give some of the things away to? I want people to be able to make use of a few items. I'm the only one comfortable to navigate the Internet. But I don't really know where to turn to. Maybe free sharing sites? But there is no guarantee that the people will pick up the items.
I haven't even begun to really explore my mental state. I feel like I'm in a constant disassociative state.