My friend got bullied badly so I stepped in and I stood up for my friend and I gave the bulky a piece of my mind and I didn’t hold back (verbally) and I feel jangled up inside and unable to sleep, unable to move, unable to even get myself a drink of water. The truth is I’m fed up with dealing with other people and it brings out the worst in me and I’m fed up of peoples hidden agendas but most of all I’m fed up with my life and my battles, every day I battle and struggle to stay alive because even eating and drinking normally I find difficult and carrying on because everything I every knew and cared about was taken away from me by god and I’m supposed to be okay with that, he took my mother, he took my sister and now I got nothing left just a shell of who I once was, but he won’t he take me I’m just made to sit here and wait and suffer and nothing I do feels like it’s ever good enough. I make many mistakes but I can’t keep up with the pace of life, I struggle with food, drink, keeping my bank account balanced, looking after myself and the pets because my partner can’t help I do everything other than cool because no one else can. The house is getting more and more of a mess and I feel helpless like everything’s getting on top of me.