im really fed up of this life. lockdowns have sucked all the strength out of me its made me relize how rubbish my life is everyone is so excited about restrictions being lifted and im not excited at all it willl just make me feel more lonely as i have noone to see my ex came round too ended up in an arguement as hes not happy i want a break and he really wants to try the trust for me is an issue i dont know what ive done to deserve all this maybe its my sister giving me karma for not helping her enough before she passed.